Archive for the ‘regret’ Category


Day 6 “first draft” for NaPoWriMo 2013 part of my Smalling Down™ series _______________________________________ Speechless on finally reaching the end • as he reached the threshold he hesitated stopped breathed in partially turned head cocked breath caught hand resting on the door their eyes met held each wanting to speak …silence she sighed looked away […]


“Under Windsor Bridge” by Adolphe Valette, 1912 Sanctuary • dead calm envelops me moist morning fog adrift on the water wraps ‘round me like a cool blanket it muffles the sounds of daybreak’s industry alone with my thoughts in peaceful privacy safe anonymity the regrets of last night dim and fade this brief sanctuary a […]


“A Dinner Table at Night” — by: John Singer Sargent Solitaire • immersed in pleasured chatter bursts of heightened laughter in the ringing clank of crystal of silver on fine china crisp bustle of starched service lush rustle of satin’d lace aglow in silken’d candlelight caressed by gentle strains wafts of sweet Bordeaux heady fragrance […]


…here’s in keeping with my ‘dark’ fantasy that all clowns have bizarre, perhaps criminal pasts… Laughing • gaze upon me if you will my countenance crafted to fool and thrill I’ve spent years in greasepaint fear and sorrow I rue the past I dread tomorrow they call me laughing bob it wasn’t intentional you see […]

The Hour of the Beast

  The Hour of the Beast • when the most capable believe they have risen above the mucus, the shit, the afterbirth of their origin when in their reflection they see perverse transcendence towards entitlement in which no allegiance or kinship of nature binds them to their center nor founds them in the fevered fumbling […]

Morning’s Pardon

…morning brings we fallen mortals forgiveness and hope…   Morning’s Pardon • fallen into night’s embrace held down by dark shadows I writhe in the arms of nightmare would that I could rise into the light of dawn’s nod but I’m flesh, weak, consumed by flesh purity laid raw entangled in my sin skin to […]


…to loved ones missed, now sadly departed… Gone • after the clutter of leaving after the hurry of goodbye after sweet anticipation faded away after no more embraces after the laughter was memory after the sadness collected day upon day after the spaces fell empty after the familiar grew distant after our time together had […]

The Dimming

  The Dimming • here is the change the forgetting the slipping away into the haze of memory the frustration of no longer being able and still the burning longing to… remember and you dimming in this fog midst the times we have cherished the places we have loved fading beyond reach an ever-mounting loneliness […]


  Silent • do you hear the autumn wind stirring in the branches do you hear the leaves rustle do you hear my breath whispering your name do you hear my heart beat do you hear my tears fall or is it silent silent as the light-less realm that hauntingly engulfs my soul silent as […]

For Naught

  For Naught • the virgin page taunts me untouched the bright white throbs like a migraine no burden of remorse no weight of mystery does it bear no sting of anger no wink of mirth does it proffer nothing sensual or sensitive to share no tale to spin no plot to thicken no coin […]


  Hope • I lift myself quietly very quietly from beneath the sheets soiled with neglect soaked with my nightmares I am again awake from another dark night that began with fear fear I might not survive and ends in sorrow realizing I did I rise make my way carefully past the shallow-breathed crumple that […]

Silence – two reflections

These two poetic reflections are unrelated, beyond their focus on silence. The first reflection here considers what it is to fall into the deepening silence of old age. The second reflection looks at the silence that causes, and also results from repression…   1ST REFLECTION Endings • shrouded by evening in waning october as autumn […]

King of Sunrise

  King of Sunrise • on the boulevard below last night’s rain puddles midst the chaos of metro-clutter held hostage by tire and curb as if abandoned by the waters of earth it shoulders its way through the gutters in search of mother sea this day begins golden and crisp bird songs echo empty sunrise […]


Aeropachydermicide – recklessly causing the death of someone or something by actions that result from the foolish belief that one is so smart and powerful that one can make an elephant fly.   Aeropachydermicide • somewhere between our petrochemical insanity and our reckless dance with fractured atoms we believed we were the miracle and it […]

Images – a ten year vigil

…lest we ever forget       Images • images unreal unfathomable images the graceful glide engulfed by the spire in a roar of golden orange horribly beautiful perversely mesmerizing obscene devastating images torrents of humanity raining down desperation their only escape masses of humanity racing to outrun the unbelievable praying to be delivered from […]