Finish Line

This song by Sarah McLachlan, “In The Arms Of An Angel” always makes me break down. He is my son, Aaron Robert Kistner. Hearing this song takes me deep into memories of my sweet angel. My son Aaron died in his 18th year, just prior to entering college to study music. He was a very handsome, kind, and gentle young man – and a fabulous singer. I miss him so, everyday. I ache to hold him close just once more — to hear his beautiful voice. I wrote this poem very shortly after his tragic death in a horrible auto accident.

In loving memory of my son, Aaron Robert Kistner: 11/4/76 – 7/3/95

 

This is my favorite picture of you son,
the one I treasure most
since your passing.

A simple snapshot,
taken at the airport,
upon your return
from having run the New York City Marathon.

A gentle, triumphant smile,
eyes beaming behind those ‘cool’ shades,
jacket sleeves rolled in casual hip-ness,
bag gripped firm and steady in your left hand,
medal dangling proudly from your strong neck.

The victor: gentle, cool, hip, carefree, proud, and strong,
– fiercely handsome!

How profound this captured moment proved to be.

Taken just before the finish line of your 18 years,
it said it all.

Your race is run,
your bag is packed,
your reward’s in hand.

Fly my sweet angel – fly!

*
rob kistner © 1995

 

Your Car Sir


 

Of course you have a choice sir
of course
we all have choices sir

one always has a choice
the very same choice
you
and the rest of us
have enjoyed
since birth

we can choose to live
we can choose to die
we can choose to smile
we can choose to cry
about it all

we can choose
to get the facts
to understand
or just wonder why

but we all must choose
you must choose

this car sir
will take you
to tomorrow

so if you’d like
to see tomorrow
get in!
now!

the next car back?

sir
that car
will never see tomorrow

but it will be up
in just a moment — sir
if you prefer

*
rob kistner © 2021

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The Secret

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photo collage: “The Secret” — by: rob kistner © 1997

 
The Secret

~

from the dawn of awareness
through the dark times
beyond the ages of change
into these times

they have kept it
the keepers of the secret

and now
with great fortitude of will
to safequard frail truth
they must keep it still

~ ~ ~

rob kistner © 2019


 

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  • Life is Duality


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    Life Is Duality

    ~

    on catching a glimpse of the Great Mystery

    I sometimes get very dark
    my emotions get brittle
    and heavy
    an anger at life swells

    every time I dig deep enough
    be it on my own
    or in counseling
    I come up against two constants

    things I cannot change
    but have left a most indelible mark

    one unfolded
    over a horrendous period
    of my early years

    the other
    happened in a horrible flash
    during my mid-life

    both so horrific
    they changed forever
    my humanity

    try as I do
    their darkness still surfaces
    and in those moments
    my inner light gets smothered

    but I will never stop facing them down
    ferociously
    when I feel their chilled grip

    that is what life is
    keeping the good fight
    and embracing
    with love and gratitude
    the beauty we have also been given

    and we have been given so much
    so amazing

    life is duality
    life is balance
    the keeping of it
    and the regaining of it
    when it’s lost

    and it DOES get lost
    at times
    very lost

    but life is an awesome opportunity
    an experience of the profound
    and mysterious

    the mystery we are not meant to solve
    but rather
    to celebrate
    with grace and wonder

    peace to all
    may love touch all of our lives
    for love is the gateway
    to the great mystery

    as John
    one of our last
    great
    modern prophets said

    love is all you need
    and in the end
    the love you take
    is equal to the love you make

    so find your lover
    and make love
    with great freedom
    abandon
    gratitude

    and the power of the spheres

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2013

    Perception’s Window


    artwork by Jack Vettriano

     

    Perception’s Window

    ~

    we are infinite beings
    awaking slowly
    from some infinite place

    our coming to be
    unknown to us as any mystery
    our essence an enigma

    learned in stories
    in waiting relationships
    gradually we open to our identity

    awareness dawns
    like the rising of a newborn sun
    breaking on our window of perception

    we feel its warmth
    and flow effortlessly into timelessness
    as though immortal

    we see not over the horizon
    for we see no horizon
    but limitless eternity

    we comprehend no end
    immersed only in the now
    given of our origin

    it is therein exists the miracle of life
    we are infinite beings in this moment
    dreaming to sustain the moment

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2012

    Evening Prayer

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    Evening Prayer

    ~

    sun sits low on the horizon
    dusk slowly advances
    the breath of night begins to stir
    all the daydreams are gone to bed

    I sit quiet
    on my ole bench
    soothed by the cool breeze
    warmed by the memories
    that huddle ’round me

    from far into the past
    they drift
    forward through the years

    they visit gently
    one by one

    memories of those
    I’ve been well to know
    those I’ve been blessed to love
    those that have got beyond
    a tender tear for every one

    a sweetness fills the air
    just a touch of soft regret

    my heart is full
    my spirit calm
    I surrender
    to fate’s embrace

    would this evening never end
    but soon
    the lingering day
    will bow its head
    twilight too will fade

    as the waxing night
    blankets my repose
    I fall still
    and pray

    pray
    when soon carried away
    it be in deep
    peaceful sleep

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2012

    Morning’s Pardon

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    Morning’s Pardon

    ~

    fallen into night’s embrace
    held down by dark shadows
    I writhe in the arms of nightmare

    would that I could rise
    into the light of dawn’s nod
    but I’m flesh, weak, consumed by flesh

    purity laid raw entangled in my sin
    skin to skin with my obsession
    restrained to roil in my transgression

    but soon the light of morne
    will fold itself upon me pardoned
    oh pray I not be too far drawn asunder

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2012

    Rāgarāja’s Daughter

     

    Rāgarāja’s Daughter

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    radiant vision silken skinned
    translucent alabaster blaze
    torrid as a teen’s temptation
    leaned low here before me yearning

    on plush cloud so sensuous
    sweet comely goddess forward bent
    graceful face aglow with craving
    you conjure ardor’s obsession

    a’bloom in beckoned fiery swoon
    forearms rest on pillow soft
    thoughts aflame in primal need
    lips burning smile a fetched seduction

    Rāgarāja’s daughter lush with Spring
    smoldering in golden light
    that folds upon you satin supple
    to bathe in warmth your arched desire

    divinely-pleasing luscious morsel
    served up by a master’s hand
    passion bound to tantalize
    to hypnotize my hungry eyes

    lost in carnal fantasy
    fired by this goddess buff
    arises now my animal
    in a beastly urgent lust

    to wrap ‘round
    this maiden magic
    flesh to flesh
    to full consume
    to thrust
    and thrust
    my randy lust
    ’til passion’s seed
    has turned to dust
    and wanton
    carnal flames
    are snuffed

    Spring’s sweet madness
    at last
    enough

    • • •

    rob kistner © 2012

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