(bastard’s lament)
•
undesired
discarded
thrown away
though whole
sound
and useful
no matter
labeled mistake
misbegotten
unfortunate
shown the back
outside
looking in
left behind
alone
by the side
of life’s road
to endure
the harsh weather
of abandonment
tried
convicted
sentenced for life
to suffer confusion
shame
the sorrow
of the unwanted
condemned
guilty only
of the crime
of inconvenience
• • •
rob kistner © 2010
this is so powerfully true…a generation of disposable children. Well done!
Thank you Kathe, this piece is autobiographical…
…rob
Wow… this a sad, tragic and moving. Nice Magpie. Bisous, Love and Light, Sender
…and sadly, it happens everyday, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year… ad nauseam…
…rob
I’m sorry to hear this piece is personal, Rob. Piercing and sorrowful.
Thank you Tess, but it’s the past, and I have been blessed with a wonderful wife, and 3 great kids, 2 still surviving… 😉
…rob
My father was put out for adoption when he was six months old, then his adoptive parents put him into foster care at age four because they found they could have their own children. Despite two such slaps, he was an incrdibly gentle loving man who loved music and laughter above all things, exvept the family he created.
Elizabeth
I align with your father ElizaBeth, including his love of music and laughter — in the end, it is not what you’re given when you arrive, it’s what you create and leave behind… like your dad, I made my own loving family…
…rob
A powerful piece of writing made more so by the truth inherant within it.
It is facing the truth that does set one free Susannah…
…rob
Brilliant. I felt it deeply because it is similar to my husband’s story and the damage done. I will share this with him over the weekend.
I’m pleased this piece has relevance for you and your husband Lydia…
…rob
Your powerful words bring out every ounce of my nuturing maternal instinct to compensate! I’d like to send a retrospective hug, if you see what I mean?! 🙂
I feel your hug Jinksy, thank you — and I understand what you mean… 😉
…rob
such a sorrowful past…but presently you are loved by someone good.
very touching.
Rene
I have great love in my life now for many years Rene, thank you…
…rob
So sad, and I’m sorry it’s personal for you. It’s very unfortunate. But I’m glad you were able to make your own family.
It is my past, what I have now is miraculous…
…rob
Powerfully painful Magpie.
…and all too true for too many Kristen…
…rob
Dear Rob: Really moving and honest piece. Words hurt and so does the way society has a tendency to label an innocent child’s status. Thank-goodness this is changing. It was so much worse 50 years ago. Today, we remove those hurtful words that come from close-mindedness. Thank-you for this! No one is truly motherless. We all have mothers.
We all have been given birth Jane, but sometimes love must be sought…
…rob
sad…but factual in many respects…we must always known we are wanted…even if only wanted by the one…who is the(self) living within…bkm
Self-love/respect and actualization is key to mental and emotional health — but it is exceedingly difficult to know how to love one’s self when you’ve never known the feeling, and been repeatedly ‘programmed’, by word and deed, to believe you are not worthy… huge barriers BK…
…rob