If Only

Original DDE™ art: “If Only” by: rob kistner © 1/13/26

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regret is the echo that lingers
after a door has closed

not loud
just persistent

a thin whistle of chill wind
through memory’s cracks

it does not accuse
only reminds
replaying moments
revised too late

regret gathers in silences
where words waited unsaid
in courage folded untouched
stored away unused

it settles into storms
mistaken for only weather
into seasons endured
not knowing their duration

yet regret shapes awareness
reveals the outline of choice
it proves something mattered
that a crossroads once held weight

without regret
movement would be reckless
ill considered

steps unmeasured

never a sense
of the true cost
of turning away

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rob kistner © 1/13/26

Poetry at: dVerse

 

The Higher Star

”God forgave me, figured I ought to too” — Johnny Cash

Original DDE™ art: “I Messed Up” by: rob kistner © 1/13/26

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I chased the higher star
like it should be my witness
my validation

wanted the climb to prove
I was wiser—

that I was better—
that I was correct

even though my apologies
wore polished shoes
they had holes in the souls

I said
forgive me

but built a staircase into the words
so I could stand a step higher
when you looked back

I embraced it as maturity

but it was armor
protecting my ego–
saving my face

it was in fact
a prison—
a prison of arrogance

there were times
I wasn’t sorry—
not for the wound

only for how
it made me look

times I confused clarity
with being right
and mercy
with winning—

quietly

but winning nonetheless

owning this
hurts more
than any fall from Grace
that ever put me in my place—
exposing my “raw”

I was blind to your pain
because I only saw this
from my side—from my pride

I have finally learned
but you have been burned

I know now
the higher star
is not a place afar—
not a summit

it is the courage
to kneel in the dust
— and say —
without defense

I was wrong

my friend
please forgive me

all my brothers
all my sisters
to whom I’ve been so foolish—

I am so — so sorry

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rob kistner © 1/13/26

Poetry at: dVerse