Freedom

Author’s note: This is a lyrical short story, with a poetic essence. This is a retelling of a scene from a cross-country motorcycle journey I took in 1970 with my three best friends. It was prompted by my travel diary, kept during this trip. Ironically this adventure began in Cincinnati, Ohio, as did the recent movie “Wild Hogs”.
 

Freedom

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Dedicated fondly to Wally Bolduc, Bill Sutphin, and in fond memory of Tom Sutphin
we were the fantastic four

Leaning comfortably into the turns, breeze streaming through our long hair, we wind our way into the mountains, into the evening, alive with the two-wheeled freedom of the open road, not counting days, not keeping track, just being – free!

We glide between alternating shadow and light, as the sun reveals itself, from time to time, warming us from between the peaks, as it begins to settle behind the western slope of the Rockies.

Four friends, four adventurers — we’d thrown off the structured mantle of life, to venture into the random, the unknown, and embrace the magnificent perfection of living in, and for, the moment.

Discarding all identity and baggage associated with our previous realities, we had re-christened ourselves in the spirit of this grand escapade.

Tom became WiseMan; Wally, SturdyMan; Tom’s brother Bill appropriately became PartyMan; and me, DirectorMan, toting the maps, setting the course, and trying my damnedest to keep this wild show on the road. Each named by the others, with uncanny foresight, as life would later testify.

While hardly true superheroes, we did possess the audacity of brazen youth essential to breathe life into our new “secret persona“ known to this date, only to each other.

Tom in his red/white/blue riding suedes, Wally in his cool rust-colored Buckskin fringe, Bill with his ever-present rosewood Martin guitar, and me in my seam-embroidered denim jacket, with peace sign back patch — we were boldly on the road, a rolling carnival of curiosity.

Four newly-anointed superheroes, fresh on the heels of the “Summer of Love”, dedicated to a critical mission; spread the peace, share the love, save our sanity, and above all else — keep the party rolling!

Up out of Boulder and down into Dream Canyon we scramble, each rider alternately surging to the front of the pack, setting the pace, then drifting to the back — enjoying the thrill of the throttle! This is as close to flying as it gets, without actually being airborne!

Down into the canyon we sail, twisting along the asphalt as it snakes its way, hugging the most beautiful mountain stream I’ve ever seen. Upcoming curves are often hidden from view, as they disappear behind the rise of a slope. Mountain peaks soar, brushed and enfolded by powerful clouds, moving with majestic purpose through a brilliant blue sky.

We charge onward, awash in the kaleidoscopic wonders surrounding us, filled with an exhilarating sense of danger to season the excitement of discovery. Awesome feeling!

Gradually, a long, lazy right-hand sweep carries us round and through a summit pass. Then a sudden crisp rise, a snap-quick left dip, and BAM – a gorgeous vista of rolling green and shimmering gold explodes before us as our cycles straighten upright. Captivating! Breathtaking!

And there, just ahead, next to the stream, by that stand of vibrant aspens bordering the southern edge of this high-mountain meadow, lay our evening’s destination.

Slowing, we turn carefully off the road, coasting gently to a stop on the smooth, cushioned canyon floor. Here we’ll camp.

One by one we glide to a perfectly parallel pause, boots down, straddling our dual-wheeled rockets, a precision squadron of festooned free spirits.

First Wally, then I, then Tom; and last, as often happens, comes Bill. We first three, mesmerized in the moment, suddenly remember! Turning in a unified, but futile shout, drowned by the drone of internal combustion, we frantically exhort Bill to, “be careful — your feet down!”

Bill, god love him, for some strange reason, occasionally forgets to put his feet down after an extended period of riding.

Too late! With a tilt and a tumble, Bill goes over. A huge smile is beaming from his face, visible in flashes as he cartwheels, ass over backpack, to a cluttered crash landing.

Dropping our kickstands to balance our ‘rides’; the man of wisdom, the man of strength, and the man with the plan stumble laughingly to help the man of mirth right his wheels and collect himself.

Here we circle, nudging, slapping, laughing – handsome in youthful friendship, hysterically perplexed by Bill’s absent mindedness, intoxicated by the awesome beauty of the natural world around us, and totally exhilarated by another day spent as truly free men!

The spell interrupted, we adjourn, each man separately to his bike, turning to the detailed but pleasant task of settling in — our souls satisfied by the serenity of the moment.

Smiling, shaking my head in sweet wonder, I muse, “Bill’s just got to remember to put his feet down!”

It’s nearly four decades since those days of freedom. Memories have cooled, grown hazy. I take license in their recall, grateful they remain at all. I’m blessed by their refrain, no matter how faint.

My days are not so light now. I’m rooted in responsibility, balancing the blessings and the burdens of life — sometimes bent by the yoke of worry, made heavy by the weight of loss.

Yet, occasionally, I still feel the gentle breeze of freedom stir, as I stand, feet firmly planted, braced against the changing winds of time and fate.

Adrift in the eternal now, awash in recollection, I chuckle silently to myself, struck by the image of Bill struggling to get those damned feet down.


Falling deeper in reverie’s embrace, I can almost feel that wind on my face, tossing once more my youthful mane. I whisper a promise to my awakened spirit, “Someday, before it is too late, I will again lift my feet up, and lean into those turns.”

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rob kistner © 2007

Remembering Allen

Author’s note: “Remembering Allen” is free verse poetry that reflects the lives of the individuals featured herein, and their impact on mine. Born in ‘47, I was just at the final fringe of beats, but once I discovered them, they influenced my song lyrics and poetry since I was 14-years-old. The characters in this piece are, in order of appearance, Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac, Neal Cassady, Timothy Leary, and Ken Kesey. This work neither condones nor condemns anything, and intends no value judgments.

(for Allen Ginsberg, upon the 10th anniversary of his passing)
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Oh I was there!
You and Jack – suckling life’s sweet underbelly,
in the quaking nocturnal neon zoo.

Me – in my plastic-handled-Roy-Rogers-two-gun glory –
running fast as I could to catch the bad guys.

Racing to outdistance the abandonment, the alienation,
that already knew me by my first name –
altogether too damned familiar.

Oh I was there –
separated only by time and space,
the chronological happenstance of conception.

You and Jack and Neal – groin deep in human wallow,
swilling full the brain-drug flesh festival,
spewing forth to fill, in latter years, my fertile ears
with the siren song of sacred dissatisfaction.

Your fingers burned from dancing with the fire-whores of
truth, angst, and indignation.

Me – swollen with the sting of banishment, taunted,
the outcast bastard – unaccepted by my peers.
Frightened child fleeing to a world within,
yet vibrating with virgin vision –
naive imagination – foolhardy faith,
that somewhere, someday, something must be better.

Oh I was there, though none yet aware – but there I was!

Coming over that hallowed hill of pubescent predilection,
fast and hard as holy hell – cresting and crashing in,
just as night fell on Bohemia –
the streets now new ablaze in a black-light
strobe-light, tie-dyed lightshow!

I was on the road, I was on the bus, I was on my way –
howling mad, and mind-expanded!

I came in a rolling demon’s fire,
lighting the night, dancing with every devil I could find.
Ranting and raving and blazing.
A combusting carnal fireball – roaring –
hormoned-hungry for all of life’s deliciousness.
Ferocious appetite, lusting and longing to consume
every forbidden morsel and crumb –
to gorge the smorgasborgadelic mindfeast
succulently set by Neal, Jack, you, Tim, and Ken.

Man – I was there!

Thundering in your shadows, warmed by your light,
though just beyond,
though just beyond.

Each light burned so brightly, then each burned out,
all flames are gone.

I remember, Allen.
All you crazy blessed bastards — I remember,
you marvelous magic maniacs!

Madder men than you the world will not soon see.

But you’ve departed — there’s only me.

rob kistner © 3/27/07

3D Geometric Series

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This is piece above is part of my 3D-Geometric Series and is a mirrored build up. I titled this piece “Cirque de Esprit” means “Circus of the Mind”. See if you can use your imagination to see the 3 clowns. The original piece is giclée on canvass and measures 24″H x 48″W.
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The three pieces you see below here are also part of my 3D-Geometric Series.

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These can be viewed at a larger size by clicking on the “continue reading” link.

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Letter to a friend regarding poetry

Author’s note: I wrote this to a fellow writer, poet Ken Nye, who was reflecting on the frustration of nonconstructive criticism, and the occasional inflexibility of others. This letter was a flowing stream of consciousness. Upon re-reading it, I realized it spoke to being true to one’s self in all we do.

It also addressed my perspective on original free verse poetry, my favorite type of writing — the one that gives me the most joy.

I felt this letter was the perfect way to begin my blog.

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My Surreal Art

N.B. all artwork on this post © rob kistner

My surreal work is a technique I call: Directed Digital Extrapolation™,

My DDE™ process is a 5-step process of manipulating my original digital images, utilizing both AI bots and final detailing software.

1st) I use visualization and loose digital sketching to conceive the core image concept for the piece
2nd) I use either my Wacom tablet, but more frequently, my iPad to render the core image, employing apps, tools, and plug-ins
3rd) write and enter the code command stream, URL, and prompt script to direct the AI extrapolation-bot process for the core beta
4th) execute the initial bot run layering deeper into this step of the process as may prove necessary until desired parameters (approx. 95%) are reached
5th) do final touch ups of master image with Photoshop/Illustrator

~ below are a few examples of my finished original pieces, all © rob kistner ~

Remembering Aaron today

23rd MEMORIAM FOR AARON ROBERT KISTNER

 

“you’re forever on my mind”

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Finish Line

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(In loving memory of my son, Aaron Kistner: 11/4/76 – 7/3/95)

It is my favorite picture of you son,
the one I treasure most
since your passing.

A simple snapshot,
taken at the airport,
upon your return
from having run the New York City Marathon.

A gentle, triumphant smile,
eyes beaming behind those ‘cool’ shades,
jacket sleeves rolled in casual hip-ness,
bag gripped firm and steady in your left hand,
medal dangling proudly from your strong neck.

The victor: gentle, cool, hip, carefree, proud, and strong,
– fiercely handsome!

How profound this captured moment proved to be.

Taken just before the finish line of your 18 years,
it said it all.

Your race is run,
your bag is packed,
your reward’s in hand.

Fly my sweet angel – fly!

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rob kistner © 7/23/05

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Aaron Robert Kistner, 18th birthday, returning from NYC Marathon
Shortly before he was killed
photo edited by: rob kistner © 2008

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