The Patient Sea

“I offered this post for OLN #250 to celebrate September on the Oregon Coast.
This was originally written and posted in 2007.”

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Indian Beach, Oregon Coast

 
The Patient Sea

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roaring in
the chest of the wave
slams the massive boulder

the great stone rocks back
undetectably

with a deep thud
more felt than heard
it bumps solid
against the face of the cliff
to which it crowds

as the spent wave recedes
the hulking mass settles again
immovable as bedrock
defying the next swell
and the next
and the next

but the sea is patient

this steadfast giant
in the ebb and flow of time
will acquiesce
becoming the grains of sand
upon which it now rests

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Indian Beach sunset, Oregon Coast

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rob kistner © 2007

 

  • Click below to check out more poems at dVerse:

    OpenLinkNight #250

     

    More Oregon Coast September images.

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    The two photos immediately above I captured years ago in the month of September. The top photo is the Heceta Head lighthouse on the Oregon Coast. I loved the powerful visual impact created by the tiny lighthouse, beside the vast Pacific Ocean. The bottom photo is of sunset at Indian Beach, also on the Oregon Coast. I digitally rendered both originals into giclée on dappled canvass. “Lighthouse” measures 36″W x 46″H and “September Sunset” measures 60″W x 24″H.
    NOTE: below are two tighter shots of the Heceta Head lighthouse pictured in the giclée above to give you a better sense of scale. The people pictured in the photo at the very bottom below enhance perspective of scale even further.

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  • Remembering — Poems For My Family

    NOTE: I am sharing these poems today on OLN, so that I can remember. A significant family event occurred this past week, which I will not share here. It made me wang to be a fly on the wall to my own past. You can join me if you wish.

    Here is a suite of four love poems I’d written to my family. “A Clearing” is written to my wife, Kathy. “Remembered” is written to my daughter, Jennifer. “Tough Love” is written to my son, Justin. And “The Picture” is written to my departed son, Aaron. Click below if you would like to read this suite of poems.

    Authors note: I wrote this following piece in honor of my wife, Kathy, on the occasion of our 20th anniversary as a couple, our 18th wedding anniversary, which occurs next week. Kathy, like me. is an artist. Her discipline is contemporary fiber art. Her work is unique, and her craftsmanship is quite splendid. We are just beginning to set up a website for her Fibrations Studio.

    A CLEARING

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    (For my wife Kathy)

    Often, when you’re away,
    a calm settles over me.
    I’m filled with a warmth, a peace,
    a joy that is my love for you!

    The fog of life’s distractions dissipates.
    The veil of pride and insecurity lifts.

    I see, with great clarity,
    how real – my love for you,
    how true – my bond of fidelity,
    how remarkable – our relationship,
    how certain – I would give my life for you!

    In these precious moments
    emotions overwhelm me.
    I vow I will share with you
    the depth of these feelings,
    holding nothing back – baring all!

    Then the fog creeps back.
    I am again shrouded by insecurity.
    Expressions of love falter – I fall mute.

    So, my love, see these words as a clearing,
    where you can visit and be nurtured.
    A private, wonderful place you can go,
    to know these treasures in my heart!

    …

    Rob Kistner © 2007

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    Author’s note: This following piece is written to my oldest child, my daughter, Jennifer. She lives in another city, in another state. I seldom get to see her. She is active in her financial career and travels the world. However, she always remembers my birthday. I genuinely appreciate the present she will send, but I look so forward to the arrival of the accompanying card — word’s can’t explain. It’s the card in which she takes pen in hand, and puts pen to card to write me some words of love. The note always starts with my most favorite word!

    Remembered
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    (For my daughter Jennifer)You’ll Ii

    After all these years, she hasn’t lost the magic,
    to transport me through time and space.

    As I open the card that found its way
    across the lonely miles between us,
    I see it, the magic word,

    Daddy!

    Like a brilliant sorceress,
    she’s cast her spell.
    I find myself in a wonderful dream.

    She floats into my arms,
    wrapping me in warm embrace:

    pure,
    absolute,
    unquestioning,

    LOVE!

    “Daddy!” She smiles into my eyes.
    She is my little girl again,
    my firstborn, my beautiful daughter!

    So I cry.

    …

    Rob Kistner © 6/25/95

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    Author’s note: This following piece is written for my youngest child, and only surviving son, Justin. It is my great joy to have raised him, and to know him now as a man.

    Tough Love

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    (For my son Justin)

    Ours is a tough relationship,
    tough love, no room for timid.

    It is so easy to find fault,
    for there in you go I.

    Your imperfections glare at me.
    I have them all within, and more.

    Photos from my past, uncanny,
    they might as well be you.

    But it’s where we’re not alike
    that your miracle begins.

    You shine more brightly than I do,
    or likely, ever did.

    You care for people, honestly.
    I feign, in truth, I’m distant.

    Your strength in facing life,
    man — I just stand and marvel!

    You’ve accomplishments in hand, right now,
    I never will attain.

    I do envy you, my son.
    At times, I’m even jealous.

    It’s this acute familiarity
    that can cause the sparks to fly.

    We fight, but greater is my love.
    I criticize, but you make me proud.

    My love for you is true and deep.
    My pride is vast and lasting.

    It’s impossible with these words I craft,
    to tell you what you mean to me.

    But every word for love and pride —
    I feel in my heart!

    …

    Rob Kistner © 2007
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    Author’s note: This following tribute was written to my son, Aaron. He would be 30 years old today, but his life was tragically cut short at the age 18, when he was killed in a traffic accident. The individual who hit Aaron had fallen asleep at the wheel.

    The Picture

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    (In loving memory of my son, Aaron Kistner: 11/4/76 – 7/3/95)

    It may be my favorite picture of you, son,
    the one I cherish most since your passing.

    A simple snapshot,
    taken at the airport,
    upon your return
    from having run the New York City Marathon.

    A gentle, triumphant smile,
    eyes beaming behind those “way cool” shades,
    jacket sleeves rolled in casual hip-ness,
    bag thrown so carefree over your shoulder,
    medal dangling proudly from your strong neck.

    The victor: gentle, cool, hip, carefree, proud, and strong,
    — fiercely handsome!

    How profound this captured moment proved to be.

    Taken just before the finish line of your 18 years,
    it said it all.

    Your race is run,
    your bag is packed,
    your reward’s in hand.

    Fly my sweet angel – fly!

    …

    Rob Kistner © 7/3/05

    Freedom

    Author’s note: This is a lyrical short story, with a poetic essence. This is a retelling of a scene from a cross-country motorcycle journey I took in 1970 with my three best friends. It was prompted by my travel diary, kept during this trip. Ironically this adventure began in Cincinnati, Ohio, as did the recent movie “Wild Hogs”.
     

    Freedom

    ~

    Dedicated fondly to Wally Bolduc, Bill Sutphin, and in fond memory of Tom Sutphin
    we were the fantastic four

    Leaning comfortably into the turns, breeze streaming through our long hair, we wind our way into the mountains, into the evening, alive with the two-wheeled freedom of the open road, not counting days, not keeping track, just being – free!

    We glide between alternating shadow and light, as the sun reveals itself, from time to time, warming us from between the peaks, as it begins to settle behind the western slope of the Rockies.

    Four friends, four adventurers — we’d thrown off the structured mantle of life, to venture into the random, the unknown, and embrace the magnificent perfection of living in, and for, the moment.

    Discarding all identity and baggage associated with our previous realities, we had re-christened ourselves in the spirit of this grand escapade.

    Tom became WiseMan; Wally, SturdyMan; Tom’s brother Bill appropriately became PartyMan; and me, DirectorMan, toting the maps, setting the course, and trying my damnedest to keep this wild show on the road. Each named by the others, with uncanny foresight, as life would later testify.

    While hardly true superheroes, we did possess the audacity of brazen youth essential to breathe life into our new “secret persona“ known to this date, only to each other.

    Tom in his red/white/blue riding suedes, Wally in his cool rust-colored Buckskin fringe, Bill with his ever-present rosewood Martin guitar, and me in my seam-embroidered denim jacket, with peace sign back patch — we were boldly on the road, a rolling carnival of curiosity.

    Four newly-anointed superheroes, fresh on the heels of the “Summer of Love”, dedicated to a critical mission; spread the peace, share the love, save our sanity, and above all else — keep the party rolling!

    Up out of Boulder and down into Dream Canyon we scramble, each rider alternately surging to the front of the pack, setting the pace, then drifting to the back — enjoying the thrill of the throttle! This is as close to flying as it gets, without actually being airborne!

    Down into the canyon we sail, twisting along the asphalt as it snakes its way, hugging the most beautiful mountain stream I’ve ever seen. Upcoming curves are often hidden from view, as they disappear behind the rise of a slope. Mountain peaks soar, brushed and enfolded by powerful clouds, moving with majestic purpose through a brilliant blue sky.

    We charge onward, awash in the kaleidoscopic wonders surrounding us, filled with an exhilarating sense of danger to season the excitement of discovery. Awesome feeling!

    Gradually, a long, lazy right-hand sweep carries us round and through a summit pass. Then a sudden crisp rise, a snap-quick left dip, and BAM – a gorgeous vista of rolling green and shimmering gold explodes before us as our cycles straighten upright. Captivating! Breathtaking!

    And there, just ahead, next to the stream, by that stand of vibrant aspens bordering the southern edge of this high-mountain meadow, lay our evening’s destination.

    Slowing, we turn carefully off the road, coasting gently to a stop on the smooth, cushioned canyon floor. Here we’ll camp.

    One by one we glide to a perfectly parallel pause, boots down, straddling our dual-wheeled rockets, a precision squadron of festooned free spirits.

    First Wally, then I, then Tom; and last, as often happens, comes Bill. We first three, mesmerized in the moment, suddenly remember! Turning in a unified, but futile shout, drowned by the drone of internal combustion, we frantically exhort Bill to, “be careful — your feet down!”

    Bill, god love him, for some strange reason, occasionally forgets to put his feet down after an extended period of riding.

    Too late! With a tilt and a tumble, Bill goes over. A huge smile is beaming from his face, visible in flashes as he cartwheels, ass over backpack, to a cluttered crash landing.

    Dropping our kickstands to balance our ‘rides’; the man of wisdom, the man of strength, and the man with the plan stumble laughingly to help the man of mirth right his wheels and collect himself.

    Here we circle, nudging, slapping, laughing – handsome in youthful friendship, hysterically perplexed by Bill’s absent mindedness, intoxicated by the awesome beauty of the natural world around us, and totally exhilarated by another day spent as truly free men!

    The spell interrupted, we adjourn, each man separately to his bike, turning to the detailed but pleasant task of settling in — our souls satisfied by the serenity of the moment.

    Smiling, shaking my head in sweet wonder, I muse, “Bill’s just got to remember to put his feet down!”

    It’s nearly four decades since those days of freedom. Memories have cooled, grown hazy. I take license in their recall, grateful they remain at all. I’m blessed by their refrain, no matter how faint.

    My days are not so light now. I’m rooted in responsibility, balancing the blessings and the burdens of life — sometimes bent by the yoke of worry, made heavy by the weight of loss.

    Yet, occasionally, I still feel the gentle breeze of freedom stir, as I stand, feet firmly planted, braced against the changing winds of time and fate.

    Adrift in the eternal now, awash in recollection, I chuckle silently to myself, struck by the image of Bill struggling to get those damned feet down.


    Falling deeper in reverie’s embrace, I can almost feel that wind on my face, tossing once more my youthful mane. I whisper a promise to my awakened spirit, “Someday, before it is too late, I will again lift my feet up, and lean into those turns.”

    ~ ~ ~

    rob kistner © 2007

    Remembering Allen

    Author’s note: “Remembering Allen” is free verse poetry that reflects the lives of the individuals featured herein, and their impact on mine. Born in ‘47, I was just at the final fringe of beats, but once I discovered them, they influenced my song lyrics and poetry since I was 14-years-old. The characters in this piece are, in order of appearance, Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac, Neal Cassady, Timothy Leary, and Ken Kesey. This work neither condones nor condemns anything, and intends no value judgments.

    (for Allen Ginsberg, upon the 10th anniversary of his passing)
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    Oh I was there!
    You and Jack – suckling life’s sweet underbelly,
    in the quaking nocturnal neon zoo.

    Me – in my plastic-handled-Roy-Rogers-two-gun glory –
    running fast as I could to catch the bad guys.

    Racing to outdistance the abandonment, the alienation,
    that already knew me by my first name –
    altogether too damned familiar.

    Oh I was there –
    separated only by time and space,
    the chronological happenstance of conception.

    You and Jack and Neal – groin deep in human wallow,
    swilling full the brain-drug flesh festival,
    spewing forth to fill, in latter years, my fertile ears
    with the siren song of sacred dissatisfaction.

    Your fingers burned from dancing with the fire-whores of
    truth, angst, and indignation.

    Me – swollen with the sting of banishment, taunted,
    the outcast bastard – unaccepted by my peers.
    Frightened child fleeing to a world within,
    yet vibrating with virgin vision –
    naive imagination – foolhardy faith,
    that somewhere, someday, something must be better.

    Oh I was there, though none yet aware – but there I was!

    Coming over that hallowed hill of pubescent predilection,
    fast and hard as holy hell – cresting and crashing in,
    just as night fell on Bohemia –
    the streets now new ablaze in a black-light
    strobe-light, tie-dyed lightshow!

    I was on the road, I was on the bus, I was on my way –
    howling mad, and mind-expanded!

    I came in a rolling demon’s fire,
    lighting the night, dancing with every devil I could find.
    Ranting and raving and blazing.
    A combusting carnal fireball – roaring –
    hormoned-hungry for all of life’s deliciousness.
    Ferocious appetite, lusting and longing to consume
    every forbidden morsel and crumb –
    to gorge the smorgasborgadelic mindfeast
    succulently set by Neal, Jack, you, Tim, and Ken.

    Man – I was there!

    Thundering in your shadows, warmed by your light,
    though just beyond,
    though just beyond.

    Each light burned so brightly, then each burned out,
    all flames are gone.

    I remember, Allen.
    All you crazy blessed bastards — I remember,
    you marvelous magic maniacs!

    Madder men than you the world will not soon see.

    But you’ve departed — there’s only me.

    rob kistner © 3/27/07

    My Surreal Art

    N.B. all artwork on this post © rob kistner

    My surreal work is a technique I call: Directed Digital Extrapolation™,

    My DDE™ process is a 5-step process of manipulating my original digital images, utilizing both AI bots and final detailing software.

    1st) I use visualization and loose digital sketching to conceive the core image concept for the piece
    2nd) I use either my Wacom tablet, but more frequently, my iPad to render the core image, employing apps, tools, and plug-ins
    3rd) write and enter the code command stream, URL, and prompt script to direct the AI extrapolation-bot process for the core beta
    4th) execute the initial bot run layering deeper into this step of the process as may prove necessary until desired parameters (approx. 95%) are reached
    5th) do final touch ups of master image with Photoshop/Illustrator

    ~ below are a few examples of my finished original pieces, all © rob kistner ~